i love when suddenly you can see the whole big picture with God's hand blessing every part of your life for the last two years and you had know idea how it was happening. i mean, who am i to even question God's plan? but it's pretty cool when you see it laid out for you.
everyone knows our struggle with lucy...two years of testing and vomiting and headaches and no test showing a reason why. finally we got a diagnosis of the chiari malformation but we still weren't convinced it was causing her trouble. we weren't convinced we were making the right decision with the surgery and that she would be free from her symptoms. we trusted in the surgeon that said it needed to be taken care of and that it was a big one. soon after the surgery lucy started with her symptoms again. i didn't want to believe it but sure enough she was vomiting again. as if that wasn't frustrating enough, her doctors didn't seem to care to see her.
daisy and i had to take a trip to the dr the other night for her swimmers ear that was really bothering her. we were the last appointment of the night and we were an easy one. the doc could've come in checked her ears and left to go home to his family but instead he sat down to talk to me. he asked a couple of questions about lucy and came up with what i think is the exact diagnosis for her. something so simple...abdominal migraines. holy crap!!!!!!! seriously???? something that easy....
i am amazed that we had never seen this dr before the other night. i am amazed that we never got this simple diagnosis...and i truly believe that God wanted us to find lucy's chiari before we knew what was really wrong with her. she had to have that surgery...she had to be fixed before we could settle her symptoms of the migraines. that just amazes me more than i can say!!!! i just don't know how people can not believe in God when you clearly see His hand at work!
that all being said, i feel like the weight of the world has been lifted from my shoulders. i didn't realize how stressed i was about lu's health and the pain she was feeling every month. poor kid...all she needed was some tylenol and a dark room to sleep in...and maybe some meds but we are researching that now to come up with something to help her.
i love my kids and i love that God has entrusted them to me to take care of. it sure is humbling!
I remember feeling that way after realizing we had to move in with Grandma to save money for a downpayment on a house we didn't think we would get. That whole move felt depressing and we were so discouraged. Then Ben began getting his resume put together and WHAM! the next week we got the call that we were going to get a house. And I think we were meant to be with Grandma that year because in that year I learned so much more about her and learned so much from her that I would never have learned otherwise! :)
ReplyDeleteWhen you get to be my age you see God's hand throughout your life in an amazing way. It's what got me through last year, knowing that whatever happened to me was all part of the plan. Praise God. For Lucy, for you, for all my family - and for His love!
ReplyDeleteWow! What a great blog entry. I have had that "Yes, God is in complete control of my life" in so many small and big ways. And you're right.... it is incredibly humbling. Keep us posted on the abdominal migraine diagnosis.
ReplyDeleteJust got caught up on your blog! So awesome that it seems like you guys know now what is going on with Lucy!! It truly is an amazing thing to see God at work and in control of our lives! Pretty neat how you had gone to the doctor for another one of your kids and you left with knowing what may be going on with Lucy. Sounds like a huge God thing to me! He is good :)!!
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